a lil sad and missing...

i have been rather delinquent in my postings lately solely due to a project i am currently doing which has left me spending at least 16 hours a day at work.

but now as the project is more or less over, i'm left with this strangely sad feeling. i hate saying goodbye. i think that i have attachment issues. i like this team i worked with and it will be especially hard to say goodbye to cutie aussie colleague.

despite everything...

last night we had a gala dinner to mark the ending of the event. after it was over, we all wound up partying. they are a crazy bunch and it's always good to party it up on the company's account. in the 2 times that cutie aussie colleague and i have partied together, both times we wound up dancing closely with his hands wrapped around my waist. except for this time. this time he was more focussed on one of the pro athletes who we kinda work with. i hear they go "way back". apparently she's kinda always had a bit of a crush on him. how i can i fight with that? she's young, hot and a very up and coming pro athlete.

except that i thought it was pretty obvious that in some ways she was stringing him along. sure she was grinding him but i found it a bit skanky that she was grinding every other guy as well. and yet the guys all bought into that.

a lady from another company that i work with echoed my exact sentiments verbally to me. we think that he's a really great guy but it was also kinda pathetic to see him desperately try and get with the pro athlete when she couldn't even focus her attention on just him.

i guess that kinda suddenly put me off him. just like that. but of 'coz i still do have some remaining feelings for him.

but all this got me thinking bout doc real fast...

who is this doc you ask. well during the event we hired a doctor. he turned out to be a totally buffed and really friendly guy. we just got on great naturally right from the start. in fact the boss lady (who is uber cool) said that she thinks that he's interested in me 'coz it seemed like he was always hanging round our makeshift offsite office.

well i don't deny that i found him attractive. and i do believe that there certainly is some mutual attraction going on. but he never gave any real indiciation on his availability. i was encouraged by the boss lady and another colleague to ask for his number to keep in contact. but i guess i never really got the opportunity to do that alone nor the guts.

and now it's just bout the end of the project and chances are i'm probably never gonna be seeing him again (he doesn't even normally do these kinda jobs 'coz he's into aero-medical evacuations). and while it's not necessarily a huge deal, i'm feeling a lil sad at perhaps a lost chance.

as my best friend said... carpe diem.