ring ring, reality's calling

i like to think that i'm a relatively good girl. relatively. but i have to admit that in the past i have certainly not always exercised the best of my discretion. i have taken part in some pretty common behavior and made some pretty common "mistakes", all in the course of casually dating.

dating the alpha boy has been good for me. especially since he's as proper as he is. he made me realise that not everyone was just like the people i was familiar with in the party scene, that there were indeed other people out there who weren't players engaging in random behavior.

since then i've also had time to personally reflect upon my own past behavior, acknowledge the mistakes i made and to be responsible for my dating failures. maybe this is making me more sensitive to what i may deem as other people's dating mistakes.

the "booty caller" is one such train wreck. he and i got to know each other online almost 2 years ago. time has since flown by and though we chat online occasionally, we've never met up in person. initially i would have, until i started feeling like all he wanted to do when we met up was to make out with me. and while i may have engaged in random making out before, i feel it's kinda strange and somewhat pressurising to have a relative stranger tell me that online. i probably didn't immediately block and delete him maybe 'coz somehow he amused me with his conversation bout girls.

recently he IMed me and shared that he just got laid. brilliant. power to you mate. now, he's shared before that he's slept with around 40 women which he doesn't consider to be a lot. me being the prude, thinks that that's a heck of a lot. but i don't judge 'coz frankly i don't care. and i care even less bout him. that's all well and good and all except that he finds the need to then whine that the women he's been with were just using him for his body and how he feels used.

hello? reality check? it's not like he was an unwilling party in all of this. sure, the girls may have proposed the one night stands and subsequent friends with benefits situations but in which part of this did he not get a say?

when i called him out on this, saying that he isn't exactly taking sex seriously anyway and therefore probably exactly isn't in the position to "complain", he protested that he does and that he is just "spreading the love" (and by the way, eww, if i may say...). yeah that still doesn't hold any water. he claims that he wants to find a girlfriend and all that but seemed surprised when i pointed out that maybe his actions doesn't really make him seem like a good boyfriend material. afterall as much as you're choosing someone, someone is choosing you too.

dating can be hard but i'm pretty sure last i checked, nothing says "date me" like promisciousity...not.