what happened again?

friday night i went partying with some ex-colleagues. i've been out partying with 'em a few times before and it's always been fun.

we started playing the "only i have..." drinking game. it started out pretty tame... "only i have signed up for a marathon"... and then as the vodkas started flowing, it got a lil more interesting... "only i have kissed 2 guys in 2 hours"... it was definitely enlightening. but also you could feel that we were all still holding back a lil.

somewhere along the way, 2 guys came up and talked to me. i preferrred one of 'em. he was a 25 year old guy from seattle. and i love seattle. somehow he sorta joined in on our group. we were sitting next to each other on the couch with my legs over his. i'm not sure if we kissed. we might have. but i can't remember. though knowing me it's rather likely. if i didn't, it's probably 'coz i was still partially worried bout what my group might think.

i think maybe some of my ex-colleagues were a lil worried bout me. especially one of my male ex-colleagues who incidentally used to be in the same department as me. maybe he just felt a bit overprotective. he actually went to talk to the seattle guy. i had to make sure that no one was causing any trouble there. i can usually handle myself but i think they just weren't used to seeing me in such a setting.

the navy (ex) colleague appeared outta nowhere as well. i think we may have flirted. then again he's a player type and well i certainly find him cute enough for me to always wanna flirt with him outta fun. i'm not sure if we kissed. i don't think so though. but knowing me, you never know haha!

in the end it got late and everyone in the group started leaving. so i left as well. i don't think i said goodbye to the seattle guy. it was just another random thing.

i'm beginning to realise that lately my random behavior has been getting even more random. i get restless and so i party and have a bit of innocent fun. and somehow or another "trouble" seems to find me... or maybe i find "trouble". but that's just me trying to shake off that restless feeling. though lately i've been slightly "appalled" at my craziness (which honestly compared to some others, really isn't that crazy...) and how i seem to be taking these random occurences very flippantly. it's also shocking at how sometimes i don't even really remember these random occurences. alcohol definitely plays a part... but i get this feeling that another part of it is 'coz i'm just laughing it off and not taking any of it seriously to even try and remember what happened.

i don't know... maybe i should start toning down soon? then again where's the fun in that?