what happened again?

friday night i went partying with some ex-colleagues. i've been out partying with 'em a few times before and it's always been fun.

we started playing the "only i have..." drinking game. it started out pretty tame... "only i have signed up for a marathon"... and then as the vodkas started flowing, it got a lil more interesting... "only i have kissed 2 guys in 2 hours"... it was definitely enlightening. but also you could feel that we were all still holding back a lil.

somewhere along the way, 2 guys came up and talked to me. i preferrred one of 'em. he was a 25 year old guy from seattle. and i love seattle. somehow he sorta joined in on our group. we were sitting next to each other on the couch with my legs over his. i'm not sure if we kissed. we might have. but i can't remember. though knowing me it's rather likely. if i didn't, it's probably 'coz i was still partially worried bout what my group might think.

i think maybe some of my ex-colleagues were a lil worried bout me. especially one of my male ex-colleagues who incidentally used to be in the same department as me. maybe he just felt a bit overprotective. he actually went to talk to the seattle guy. i had to make sure that no one was causing any trouble there. i can usually handle myself but i think they just weren't used to seeing me in such a setting.

the navy (ex) colleague appeared outta nowhere as well. i think we may have flirted. then again he's a player type and well i certainly find him cute enough for me to always wanna flirt with him outta fun. i'm not sure if we kissed. i don't think so though. but knowing me, you never know haha!

in the end it got late and everyone in the group started leaving. so i left as well. i don't think i said goodbye to the seattle guy. it was just another random thing.

i'm beginning to realise that lately my random behavior has been getting even more random. i get restless and so i party and have a bit of innocent fun. and somehow or another "trouble" seems to find me... or maybe i find "trouble". but that's just me trying to shake off that restless feeling. though lately i've been slightly "appalled" at my craziness (which honestly compared to some others, really isn't that crazy...) and how i seem to be taking these random occurences very flippantly. it's also shocking at how sometimes i don't even really remember these random occurences. alcohol definitely plays a part... but i get this feeling that another part of it is 'coz i'm just laughing it off and not taking any of it seriously to even try and remember what happened.

i don't know... maybe i should start toning down soon? then again where's the fun in that?

shy colleague's farewell party

friday was shy colleague's (well now he's really shy ex-colleague) last day at my former workplace. but 'coz i'm close to him (and still have many fond memories of my former workplace), i was invited down for his farewell party at a club.

it was so great to see familiar faces. some of who i've really missed. but what i didn't count on was the navy colleague (who now really is the navy ex-colleague since neither one of us are in that company anymore) being there as well.

it's a pity that i wasn't feeling the club music too much which meant that i didn't really dance a whole lot. my protege (the 20 year old girl who replaced me) however turned out to be a dancing queen and a surprisingly real wild child. she and the navy colleague did have quite a bit of fun. but the navy colleague being the player that he is isn't exactly satisfied with just her. he had a field time flirting with her friend, another colleague and me as well. in fact at one point our faces were bout an inch apart and he even kissed my foot.

shy colleague and i were also a lot more friendly touchy feely with a few hugs. it's not a big deal to me 'coz really i'm the all huggy-veggy type. but to shy colleague who is well...shy... i suppose a few hugs was quite a lot for him as it is.

it may not have been the best party night out but it was just so good to see 'em ex-colleagues again. i think despite me leaving the company, a part of me never really left at all...

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so bout the supposed 'date' on saturday with the guy i got to know from an online dating site... well that never happened...

i didn't hear from him so i texted him to ask if we were still on. yeah apparently i don't like that limbo feeling of not quite knowing my plans. he replied that he was having dinner with his friends and asked that if we could meet another day instead.

seriously i would have much appreciated if he had told me beforehand if he couldn't make it rather than have to let me check back in with him. if he wants to meet me, he'll have to ask again 'coz this girl is so not bothering.

what's worse is that tonight i saw him online and he didn't even IM me to mention anything bout him cancelling out.

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in other news, my london guy friend is back in town for 2 weeks. since last oct we haven't really kept in touch at all. then recently i saw from his IM name that he was coming back and left him a message. he called me today and we made plans to meet up next week. we'll see if this time it's a case of us getting along really well or just not clicking at all. anyhow it's all platonic. he has a girlfriend back in london and i'm no longer interested as i was last summer.

farewell party

it was one crazy friday...

i had a tobacco anniversary event in the late afternoon. it was from the same company as the tobacco launch we had last year. only this time i not only got to talk to channel manager (who i find attractive though he's a player type) but a couple of other guys came up and talked to me too.

as fate would have it one of 'em was in fact a year my junior from my school. he came up and told me that i looked familiar. i didn't think much of it since he didn't look familiar at all until we did a lil tracing back. another guy told the channel manager that i looked familiar (seriously do i have this common face or something??) and the channel manager asked me over to have a chat with him and the guy. of 'coz my guy colleagues were laughing that they were probably just interested in getting to know me. maybe? but then they could have just given me their business card and asked me for mine or something.

anyhow later a few colleagues and i decided to head out partying. given that it's my last week in my job, it was supposed to be my farewell party.

for the most part it was the same motley crew as the last time we partied. but add on a few more guys that i'm pretty close with in the office. this included the navy colleague. actually he wasn't supposed to be part of the party. but he happened to be in the office. and honestly i think there's a vibe going on between us 'coz we always seem to give each other these lil looks from across the corridor. he's a cheeky player type and well i'm not exactly the type to back down either. plus he's such a cutie. so we were joking around like we normally do and he was teasing me by pretending to unbutton his shirt. i told him he's gonna have to unbutton more than just one button. and so i invited him to join us at night. he asked for my number and subsequently we exchanged a few calls and texts to arrange the meeting location.

it was a crazy time. and let's just say that i did manage to take off the navy colleague's shirt, leaving him only in his wife beater haha! he even carried me up in an effort to get his shirt back. but hey i'm a tough chick haha!

i was in my full party persona. and even ignored the hoots from all my colleagues when random guys came up to dance with me and talk to me. but what i don't get is while i was mid conversation with a kiwi guy, the navy colleague kinda interrupted and talked to the guy. after a while the guy left which meant that i never got to complete the conversation with him.

the navy colleague definitely intrigues me. he's quite the dancing king. seriously the boy has some hot grooving moves. and being the player type he is, he obviously spends some time dancing with each of us girls. oh well i can't say that i didn't have my own fun time with him haha! later we all headed for supper and i was sitting in the front seat of a van with another colleague driving and the navy colleague in the back. we were joking around as usual and he asked me to join him in the back. i joked that i was so there. he said no strings attached. and i said of 'coz besides who wants to have strings attached to him. but it was all talk, i never did get into the back though i seriously wanted to.

anyhow it's wrong. i believe he has a girlfriend. but sometimes with these wild player types, it's just so much fun that you somehow can't help but wonder what's it like to kiss him...

that said, i had such a great time that i'm really hoping that even after i leave the company i can arrange more partying sessions with 'em... and definitely the navy colleague will be one of the firsts in my mind...

it's all in the mind...

i've always found it pretty easy to talk to guys. in fact sometimes i think that i'm sorta like one of the boys. good or bad? i don't know.

recently i was talking to the navy colleague, who i have talked to on several other occasions since our first proper conversation. somehow the conversation started on a suggestive note. and i can actually hold my own with the innuendoes. he then commented not so expressly that my thoughts were corrupted.

sometimes i really wonder if i have a brain that's in the gutter. but i can't quite help it. somehow it's in the way i say certain things or what i genuinely mistakenly hear. and once someone gets me in the wrong track, i can find innuendoes in everything else that they say later.

maybe it's from talking to guys. or maybe it's 'coz i have a gutter mind and that's why i can talk to guys.

but then again in my defence, the navy colleague baits me. and i can't help but fall into the trap when he gives me that look...

the office boys

us working people spend an average of 8 hours a day at work. that comes up to 40 hours a week. 160 hours a month. 1,920 hours a year. basically that's a whole lotta time. nearly a third of our life. i guess it makes sense that most people try and be friendly during work 'coz talking shop for a third of our life would be so tiresome.

in the last 2 years my office has seen many young men going in and out of the company. since the departure of both my closest colleagues last june, i haven't really had any female colleagues that i could bond with. instead i wound up getting pretty friendly with my guy (now ex) colleague and the new accountant. there's absolutely nothing there. it's just that we get along platonically.

and lately there has been even more office boys to chat with...

a new temporary replacement for my guy (now ex) colleague came in the form of a 21 year old shy guy. initially he was so shy that he would be sitting quietly while the rest of us were laughing away at our lunch table. i tried to be friendly and ask him some questions but he would give short quiet answers or go red in the face. recently he's been getting more comfy. so comfy such that he's been initiating non-work related IM conversations on the office IM. and he told me that he talked bout me to his friend, telling his friend that there was a 'funky lady in his office'. he keeps 'quizzing' me bout myself that it's almost like he's on a "know jo" mission. yes, apparently i must be a source of fascination for the young ones.

then there's the young IT guy who i've been getting pretty friendly with lately. he was always nice to talk to but we never seemed to have any real connection until one day when an extended conversation on lilo and stitch had me nicknaming him stitch. and after my surgery, he gave me the same nickname 'coz i had stitches. once again there's absolutely nothing there. he's got a girlfriend and i'm not interested. he's just got a great sense of humour which makes him really fun to talk to.

so yesterday i was over at stitch's workspace sharing some food (i was sharing all around the office) and we were having a lil chat bout working out. when suddenly the guy in front of him (a cute guy possibly younger than me) asked me if i was into triathlons. i was kinda taken aback. i think partly 'coz i've only talked to that guy perhaps once, the time when i noticed his italian football team jacket and we chatted bout our mutual support for the italian team. and partly 'coz it's not exactly a common occurence for someone to ask if someone else is into triathlons. so i shared with him my interest. while he's not into triathlons, he was once in the navy and hence (in my conclusion) pretty athletic. my boss man chose to come by at that precise moment and ask me bout the time when i took rollerblading lessons. that further shocked the navy colleague. and he started quizzing me on what other sport related activities i've tried. he asked if i was interested in diving (i mean he was a diver in the navy) and while i've tried it before, i'm not exceptionally interested, but i'm definitely open to it again. i guess he was toying with the idea of getting a few people together to go diving. he kept saying how he hasn't worked out in a while so i thought it polite to ask him what did he do in his free time. he said that he partied. stitch immediately chimed in that i partied as well. the navy colleague seemed surprised and said that perhaps one day he'd ask me along. i just had the feeling that our conversation left him utterly surprised. i wonder if we'll have more conversations 'coz he seems pretty nice... and he's a cutie too.

i'm definitely a people person and i love getting to know people. all these lil conversations in the office just help make the work day a whole lot more fun and go by a lot faster.