when he's gone

the alpha boy was overseas most of last week for work. and in order to distract myself as well as to take advantage of the "free time", i've been trying to catch up with as many of my other friends as possible. a house visit to see a newborn baby, dinners, a birthday celebration and even a bit of partying.

while engaging in various conversations with them, the topic somehow inevitably turned to dating and guys. as i listened to stories of crazy ex-boyfriends or guys talking bout dating, it made me appreciate and miss the alpha boy a whole lot more.

now the alpha boy isn't perfect. there are some things bout him that annoy me. and i admit that sometimes my albeit partially commitment phobic self is a lil nervous at the thought of a more serious future with him. but i've always said that one of the very best things bout the alpha boy is that he's faithful and i trust him and he treats me well. of 'coz it also helps that he loves me a lot and i in turn, really do love that boy.

i feel like i'm just being reminded bout how hard it can be to find someone suitable. and it's that thought that makes it especially nice to be back in the alpha boy's arms again.