Thursday, October 16, 2008

falling back

in the past few weeks i've been trying to get over drummer boy. really, i have been trying very hard. in fact i think i did make some progresss. but every now and then i fall back into it again... and recently was one of those moments.

i couldn't tell you what even triggers it. maybe it's a small trigger that triggered something else which in turn triggered me to think of him again. maybe it's just something that happens subconsciously that i don't really have a control over.

i thought bout the last time that things were truly great with us. i remember that last time as my birthday. ironically it was also that very day where i realised that i think i was ready for a more proper relationship with him.

it's like this cosmic conspiracy. oh jo finally thinks that she really does like the guy? then why don't we make him decide that he doesn't like her anymore?! yep one big fat cosmic conspiracy. of which i lost.

and i'm paying the price with the pain and heartache.

normally i might think that the best way to get over this is to serial date. nothing like some possibilites to distract me. except that this time round i can't even seem to shock my mind into wanting that.

i have definitely reached a whole new level of unbothered-ness and not wanting to even try.

what happens if i've also reached a whole new level of being "faulty"?



At 8:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh girl you are not 'faultly'! it is natural to still think of him and want him. but maybe you should start dating...someone else will sweep you off of your feet!

At 11:44 PM, Blogger jo said...

nevergoingbackagain: thanks for the vote of confidence. as for dating again, i don't know. i mean even the thought of it just seems so unappealing to me at the moment. which is so unlike me...

At 7:44 AM, Blogger SaneAndSingle said...

Never think of yourself as "faulty"! Maybe he is "faulty"!

At 9:27 AM, Blogger jo said...

saneandsingle: good point... maybe he's the faulty one. heck he's definitely at fault haha!


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