this probably wouldn't be the last we hear of this

i guess i shouldn't be surprised... afterall it seemed like he was being too understanding. but strangely when the alpha boy brought up the issue i have with the "other woman", i was still a bit surprised.

we were having one of our late night conversations. and then he ended my call to pick another. an hour later he called me back. turns out it was his ex. yes, he ended my call to answer hers. okay so i'm trying not to get too bothered. afterall he did tell me much earlier that he was going to catch up with her before she left for her 3-week trip the next day.

he told her bout how i felt and she was suitably bummed out. turns out she tends to lose close guy friends 'coz they get attached and their girlfriends are understandably unhappy with that close friendship. yes, that's why women should have other women as close friends.

of 'coz he then decides that he's kinda bothered that i'm kinda bothered and decides to find out just how bothered i am bout it all. i suppose it did annoy me a wee bit that he would even have to ask (but okay so the dude ain't a mind reader). i've told him before and he should know by now that i wouldn't ever say anything unless it bothered me enough. i'm someone who is really bad at talking bout feelings and emotions and hence most of the time i try to rationalise or just push 'em away. i only feel the need to say something when rationalising and pushing it away doesn't help me feel any less bothered.

i sorta reminded him bout that. and that yes, i'm bothered enough. he said that he understood where i was coming from. but frankly i'm not sure if he really did get it. i tried to explain it using words such as "inappropriate", "lines must be drawn", "emotional "cheating"" and whatever i could to try and explain. i'm not sure if i explained it well enough. or maybe it's just a girl feeling to have and he just wouldn't really understand.

i'm not wrong to feel the way i do. i know that for sure. and given most anyone else, i think they would have been likely to get more upset than i am. all the same i'm just really wondering if this will ever be resolved properly...