no thank you, i'll pass on that

i'm not entirely surprised. somehow i knew it was going to happen, that it had indeed happened...

after a fairly long while of not meeting up due to busy schedules, i finally got the chance to catch up with the other jo. i asked her bout her birthday that i missed in late june as i was on vacation. she shared that it was a terrible birthday 'coz she had a fight with her boyfriend and they pretty much broke up. she figured that was the case since he's refused to talk to her or contact her since.

from what she's said bout him before, i'm surprised that he would do such a lousy thing. that he would also tell her not to stalk him and to get out of his house when all she wanted to do was to find him and speak to him like a proper adult. i didn't realise that there were having their fair share of problems for a while now. how it would be hard to make plans with him, how they used to fight whenever they met, how girls would text him late at night bout how much they miss him. he was just shady.

he was also the same person who told her that he loved her, asked her to move in, said bout how he never felt this way with anyone else before and did all those sweet gestures from the get-go.

maybe that's why he always cast suspicion in my mind. i felt that someone who did all this (and had a track record of previous girlfriends only lasting mere months) ultimately just didn't have the staying power to be in a long-term relationship.

it's sad. 'coz the other jo is mostly a long-term relationship kinda girl. and she doesn't deserve to be broken up with on her birthday. and now she's battling the urge to contact him, not 'coz she wants to get back together with him, that ship has sailed right into hatred for him, but 'coz she just can't get any closure from him.

sometimes i think the closure happens is when another person refuses to give it. when no answer is in very fact the answer.