loss of mojo

it's been so long since i've partied and more importantly it's been ages since i last met up with my party girl. so i took the chance on friday to catch up with her over dinner and then do a bit of our usual partying. i need to be out there right?

the catching up was great. and then we went to a bar we've been frequenting lately and chatted with the bar manager and the owner for a bit. the bar manager was the bad boy guy that i've always found attractive. the last time we met things got somewhat interesting. but this time it's obvious that there's nothing there. he's definitely not interested and while i still find him attractive, he's not what i want either.

later my party girl and i along with another friend who met us in the bar and another guy who picked up my party girl in the bar went to another club. it was there that we ran into the aussie analyst who was there with his aussie friends who we also know. i couldn't help it. i still found myself inexplainably attracted to him. he gave me a nice greeting hug and cheek kisses and even winked at me once but that connection we had at my birthday party just wasn't there. there was even a time when my party girl was seated on the arm of one of the guy's chair chatting and since the aussie analyst was seated in another chair, i sat on the arm of his chair so that we could all chat. well that didn't quite work out and after a while the aussie analyst must have gotten bored of our conversation 'coz he moved over to another seat to chat with another of his friends. but of 'coz i had to give it one last shot so i tipsy texted him. he didn't reply. i believe this pretty much seals it for me. i'm done with him. anyhow he's not really someone i want for the long term.

given what happened that night, it's either i have lost my mojo or i've lost my interest in partying. or maybe i'm just beginning to look further into the future and work towards that instead of just a temporary fun.

gosh now i just sound boring. haha!