pulled heartstrings

so the ad-man and i have been chatting on IM for hours practically every day. he is a joy to talk to and there is no denying that we get along fabulously.

the problem is that i'm the sort who tends to get emotionally attached when i talk to someone more. and admittedly, as i'm finding out more and more of the ad-man's quirks, his past and his beliefs, the more i like him and the more i'm getting emotionally attached.

i suppose this wouldn't really be a problem if i knew that he felt the same way. but i can't tell interest... what does it look like? it can seem so much like just good friendship.

i'm not even saying that i'm sure that he's not interested. i mean at the moment we're still in the whole getting-to-know-you stage (though with far less initiation of face to face meeting ups than i would like) and he seems to be taking it really slow. in fact he mentioned that he's really liking being single. especially since he's been in relationships for 9 out of the last 10 years. and he admits that sometimes he's been told that he unknowingly gives out mixed signals.

i guess maybe that's my answer? maybe i've just been too caught up and reading him wrong. maybe i need to find a new guy to get over him.

but i can't help it... especially after our IM conversation on sunday night. it was at that moment i knew my heartstrings were being pulled and i found myself really wanting it to work out 'coz of the true possibility i see which i don't believe i've actually seen since many many years ago... but what's the point in all that when maybe he doesn't even like me back?