maybe i'm doing everything wrong...

since the beginning of the year, a bunch of ex-classmates and i have been meeting up every month. recently we had one of our monthly meet-ups. in the last month, one of the guys had gotten attached to a local girl who was based in japan. it's funny 'coz this was the guy that initially the rest of my ex-classmates were jokingly attempting to set us up. yeah well, i believe that if it didn't happen before, it probably won't happen.

in a lil sharing session, we found out that the girl was a friend of his friend. he went to japan for a 10-day holiday recently to meet his friend and got setup with this girl. things hit off for 'em and when he came back home, he decided to send her a special package and ask her to be his girlfriend. a 10-day romance. and all this knowing that they were going to be long distance at least for the next few years.

so then came the even bigger shocking news... they hadn't even held hands or kissed!

now this didn't seem all that shocking to everyone else. they figured that he wasn't a couple with her during those 10 days. but for some strange reason i was actually a lil surprised.

that was when i was suddenly forced to re-evaluate my "moral standing". it occured to me at how "natural" i seemed to think holding hands or making out with a person who wasn't your boyfriend was. afterall i myself have been a participant in that.

maybe the world of rampant random happenings that i have seemed to be exposed to has changed my thinking. i'm not saying that it's right or wrong. but maybe, just maybe, i've been doing it wrong. perhaps i'm selling myself short. maybe a nice normal decent guy isn't really that random. and me being sometimes random might just be hurting my chances in finding that nice normal decent guy.