color me

i know that he has a girlfriend, but somehow i still feel like there's some lil vibe going on between me and cutie classmate...

the direct eye contacts, how we sometimes talk easily and other times just stand next to each other a lil uneasily, the lil brushes of physical contact when we sit next to each other and how we've learnt not to immediately jump back and apologise.

or maybe i'm just delusional.

but then yesterday night in school as we were pouring ourselves a drink during break time, he made a comment bout noticing that i like to wear black, purple or pink. even though my wardrobe contains a whole spectrum of colors, i do sport quite a lot of black clothes. as for purple and pink, i reckon it so happened that lately i've been wearing a fair amount of those colors.

it was interesting though... to know that he must have at least spent some time looking at my outfits...

it's kinda sad 'coz after this semester i won't be seeing cutie classmate or the other guy and my female classmate friend as i'm taking a different course from 'em. it's a pity 'coz it's been definitely great knowing 'em and i feel comfy with 'em. well the upside is that somehow it was suggested that after our exams next month we would arrange to meet up outside. and somehow i've been put in charge of making that meeting up materialise. and i guess if it's up to me i can actually do something bout it. it's always good to have more friends...

and a cutie soon-to-be-ex classmate.

oh so natural

when i was watching because i said so, i was immediately drawn to the musician guy as opposed to the rich and successful guy that the mom wanted to fix her daughter up with. later shy colleague asked me why.

well the standard answer would have been 'coz i just found the musician cuter. but beyond that it wasn't just his looks that attracted me but his personality.

it was then that i realised that it was bout that one word... natural.

the musician guy seemed so natural compared to the rich and successful guy who was too smooth and too suave. and i realised that it wasn't just movie characters but it was also evident in the real life guys i've liked.

i've always said before that the reason why i was attracted to cutie classmate was 'coz he had a very natural air bout him. he just seemed like he was comfy in his own skin and being his own person.

someone has also always been open and unpretentious. even to the point of lounging around and being absolutely comfy with my parents upon first meeting. he was just him. and that was what i liked bout him.

i like that feeling where i feel that the guy seems real, like he's not hiding some deep dark secret. that what i see is what i get. that's he comfy enough with me not to have to pretend. it makes me feel a lot more at ease. and that makes me more natural as well.

poof! there it goes...

another night in school, another night to see cutie classmate.

he was wearing a shirt that matched my hair. and my female friend and i pointed it out to him.

"can i snip off some of your hair to put on my shirt?" cutie classmate asked me with direct eye contact while gesturing to a spot on the top left part of his shirt where the logo was.

"whatever for?" i asked, a lil confused.

"as an accessory," he said.

i laughed.

later a group discussion bout our project somehow turned into some personal talk. i found out that both guys have girlfriends. we even got to see a pic of the other guy's girlfriend. cutie classmate however did not have a pic of his girlfriend of 2 years.

i'm wondering if there are any single guys left or am i just gonna be left on the shelf forever.

what i go to school for

so perhaps i've never really talked bout this but this year i started a post grad course. and recently i've been finding one of my classmates cute.

i didn't really used to think bout it before. by chance one day 4 of us were sitting in the same row in school. so when we needed to form a project group, it seemed to make sense that we all joined forces. he and this guy he made friends with. and me and this girl i made friends with.

but you know how sometimes these things creep up on you... somehow i started to find him increasingly attractive. we hardly talked though. and then a couple of times he sat next to me and we had a chance to chat a lil. he seemed nice. he's 32 which is a shocker since he looks like 29. but i don't even know if he's single and that's just the weirdest question to straight up ask.

so today i made a move on my cutie classmate... well as much of a move as you can get while trying to find out if he's free to meet up... as a group for the project.

jo: anyone interested to meet up outside of school on tueday, sit down with a lappy and really discuss and write out the essay?
cutie classmate: you mean today?
jo: oh oops... i meant next week. i'm not so unfriendly... will give more notice haha!
cutie classmate: yeah thought you were so last minute haha. next tuesday should be fine :)
jo: cool! then just book it for us... meet at *insert time and location* though i'm sure we are prepared for you to start packing at 9.30pm and running off haha!
cutie classmate: i can't be so predictable right haha. see you

nothing much. just some casual banter 'coz he always seems to be packing up his things before the end of the lesson and rushing off. but maybe it's a start?