Wednesday, August 06, 2008

the pounding in my heart...

okay i'm in trouble... i'm definitely in trouble. at least my heart is.

the parentals have been quizzing me nonstop bout drummer boy. actually they've been nagging me more like it. when i say that he's not right for me, a large part has to do with religion. and the fact that he has some sorta bad boy in him. let's say that the parentals are very unhappy with the religion part. and i've been trying to downplay whatever has been going on. but i get the feeling they don't quite buy it. maybe i'm trying to deceive myself as well. and i'm finding it increasingly hard to buy it myself.

so in an IM conversation last night, drummer boy said that he wanted to ask me a question. he was taking so long to formulate the question that i knew it had to be something important. in the end he asked me...

drummer boy: has anyone told u ur really attractive but even more so on an intellectual level?

that was quite a question. to be honest i think it means a lot more when someone says that as opposed to just saying that he thinks you're physically attractive. that said i kinda knew where he might be going with this...

drummer boy: what i wanted to tell u, but didn't want to go thru the trouble of explaining cuz i was afraid u'd get the wrong idea...
drummer boy: was that i found you very intellectually stimulating really... very and i seldom can find that in ppl i meet... of course that being said to be honest i wouldn't even have suggested meeting up if i didn't find u soo attractive..
drummer boy: or even meeting a second time
drummer boy: oh heh stealing that kiss

those words were sweet. and while i knew he was a bit of a "bumbling fool" over it, he phrased those words so simply and so eloquently that the meaning hit hard.

there's something. there's definitely something. i can try to downplay it or deceive myself but there is still something there. and there is something bout him.

i'm still not ready to fully commit to him. i wished it were really that simple. but i just can't. and yet i can't deny from the pounding in my heart that somehow, this drummer boy got in there...

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At 5:59 PM, Blogger Crashdummie said...

omg! I think even I'm getting a small crush on drummerboy!

Cuz lets face it, that boys knows exactly what buttons to push.. wow... i'm speechless...

 
At 7:10 PM, Blogger jo said...

haha! i know! you don't think he's playing it smooth right? i mean that's not the feeling i get but who knows right? i like the whole tripping over words "bumbling fool" types. it's cute when they get nervous. shows that they care enough to think that they've got something to lose.

 
At 12:01 AM, Anonymous lailani said...

this religion stuff- does it really matter to you? how much does it matter to him?
If either one of you is stuck on being... religious in a dif way from the other, it WILL be a problem.
There's no getting around that unless both of you are willing to put it aside.

 
At 9:38 PM, Blogger Crashdummie said...

actually, i dunno joe. Is he charming or is he being charming - one is what he is, one is what he's trying to be.

Sur eits flattering when u make aguy nervous cuz that means he is into you, but sometimes u can find clarity in the haze. maybe he is just THAT certain that he is into you....

.. dunno, i'd just say screw everything else and go by your gutfeeling.

 
At 7:29 AM, Blogger SaneAndSingle said...

This guy doesn't sound "bad boy"-ish at all to me! Bad boys don't text and pursue women all day. They surely don't hold your hand and steal kisses do they? ;)

 
At 5:41 PM, Blogger jo said...

lailani: well technically we are kinda the same religion... only that i'm a practicing christian while he's a non-practicing catholic. it doesn't matter to him, but i think it matters to me more.

crashy: you know, that is an interesting question... whether he's charming or he's trying to be. given that normally he claims that he can't really be bothered too much (which is so like me haha!), i think i'm going with the he's naturally charming?

saneandsingle: hmm maybe bad boys don't answer your texts, make you wanna hold their hand and kiss you but run away hahaha!

 

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