let this be another lesson to learn

it's almost weird how recently drummer boy and i have been back in kinda contact... well at least we're sorta IMing at times. but now that i'm interested in the swedish guy, how i feel bout drummer boy is different.

not that i don't still like drummer boy. 'coz i do. and if there's anything to go by, my recent dream would probably say it all. i dreamt that i was hanging out with his friends and he was there with his new girlfriend (btw i have no idea whether or not he does have a new girlfriend or is seeing anyone in real life). admittedly even in my dreamscape, it still felt strange for me. seeing him with his arms around another girl, kissing her. it was hard for me.

but i guess i have more or less made peace with the fact that no matter what, he will probably always have a special place in my heart. i can know that we won't work out, i can accept that it's for the best and i can even like someone else... but i can't ever truly forget him.

it's kinda the same way i feel bout dj guy. there's always just gonna be something there. and i remember him even more so today... on his birthday.

i texted him to wish him... just like any other friend. he didn't reply. yeah well when would i learn?