and the "serial dating" continues...

some time back in last late september and early october, i reached a new high with 4 dates with 4 different guys in one week. actually maybe that was stretching the truth a lil... 'coz i went out with the academic, chatty triathlete and the guy based in missouri but only made out with dj guy. so i guess technically that's 3 dates and a makeout session?

fast forward to now and in the last week i went out with with the divorcee, the indian lawyer, drummer boy and the virgin online dater. i even went out with drummer boy twice. so that makes 5 dates with 4 guys and no makeout session.

and it doesn't seem to be showing signs of slowing down...

the indian lawyer and i met up again on friday night for dinner and a movie. it was pretty fun. we ended the night early 'coz i had a early start and a long day on saturday.

things with drummer boy and i have been a lil strange, i guess is what you might call it. we've been texting each other throughout the day for the last few days. we met up on saturday afternoon just to chill out. we didn't do a whole lot but it was still pretty fun. i have no idea what's going on with us. there's a certain chemistry i suppose. but he's "wrong on paper". i don't know if and where this might head.

on saturday night i met up with the yummy mommy, another mutual girl friend of ours as well as some other friends of friends to go partying. maybe it was the club (which i don't usually like), or maybe it was 'coz i was a lil under the weather and therefore decided to curb the alcohol, but i didn't really have a whole lotta fun.

this random korean-american guy came up to talk to me and initially he seemed pretty alright, even though he did come across a lil cocky at times. but then he started getting closer and huggier with me and i got the distinctive feeling that he wanted to kiss me.

now we all know that i'm not above the random making out. but for some reason i didn't particularly feel like it this time. maybe it was 'coz i was too sober, or maybe it was 'coz i wasn't wildly attracted to him. he was persistent, i'll give him that. and i'm sad to say that in the end i "gave in". maybe 'coz i figured oh well what the heck, or maybe 'coz just to shut him up. not the best reasons but whatever. we kissed. honestly it wasn't that great. probably 'coz i knew the chemistry wasn't really there. and soon after i decided to head home. i didn't even bother attempting to maybe get his number to contact him. and i think i don't even care too much what he thought.

the next morning i awoke to a text from drummer boy...

drummer boy: good morning babe. had fun last night?
jo: good morning... last night was kinda strange... guess just not my thing...
drummer boy: strange? heh how so u made out with a strange guy?!?! hahaha
jo: hahaha! why? worried? haha! i meant strange as in i didn't really have a lotta fun. i think *insert name of club* really isn't my thing
drummer boy: hahaha worried? hmm maybe... :)

i didn't dare let on that drummer boy may have hit the nail on the head more accurately than he himself realised. not that he really needs to know right?

well for now i'm quite happy to "serial date". and i'm hoping to have some better make out sessions as well. 'coz while i have definitely missed it, that make out session on saturday just didn't cut it at all.

distract, delude & date

so i thought that maybe it'd be easier if i had been "serial dating" before i found out that the ad-man is now attached. but on hindsight maybe feeling the pain and then "serial dating" immediately after isn't too bad an idea either.

i feel considerably less in pain now. and i'm not sure if it's 'coz i'm distracting myself by "serial dating". or maybe it's 'coz i've moved on to more than just being sad at being rejected by someone i really liked, but being sad that i've lost someone that i could talk and open up to. i mean i'm a big girl, if he's not interested, that's fine, i can handle it. but losing a friend is proving to be harder than i thought.

that said, i'm surprised that i'm purged outta this faster than i expected. oh i'm sure the feelings will come back to haunt me from time to time, just like it always has with guys who made it to my heart. and everytime i try and make a new connection with a new guy, it will be a reminder to me as to how there was just an instant rapport with the ad-man. and everytime i have a superficial conversation with a new guy, i will miss the kind of conversations that i used to have with the ad-man. and everytime i wonder if i will ever find someone who understands me and accepts me for all the not-quite-open-book that i am, i will think of what the ad-man told me... that people would know me not 'coz of what i tell 'em but 'coz they understand me.

but even as i would be reminded of all the great things bout the ad-man, i will also remember the way he chose to approach this situation. i will remember that his new girlfriend isn't all that hot afterall and that i don't believe i'm any less awesome than she might be. and i will remember what the guy based in missouri said...

guy based in missouri: as for *insert name of the ad-man*, if a guy doesn't have the guts to tell you that he isn't interested anymore, it shows a lack of character
guy based in missouri: which i think you are going to be quite happy without

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in my first foray back into "serial dating", i started with someone who normally wouldn't be my type...

on his online dating site profile he had stated "single", but in his email to me he 'fessed up that he was divorced. i admit that i had to stop and think for a bit. on one hand i was initially interested enough to have winked at him and he in return sent me an email telling me the truth. was i going to veto him immediately 'coz of his failed marriage? i decided to just give it a try and after a few emails we decided to meet for lunch on friday.

lunch was short but the divorcee proved to be cute (though on the short side), eloquent and seemingly nice enough. it's hard to tell in an hour. we didn't immediately have a whole lotta things to say but found some common ground when we realised that we went to the same school (he is 2 years my senior) and hence knew a few mutual friends. most shocking of all is that i realised that i knew his ex-wife. in fact at one point she and i actually did get along quite well. she was a year older and as a teenager, i looked up to her 'coz she was beautiful, smart and could get any guy she wanted.

i wanted to ask what happened and so at the first opening i got, i tentatively approached the subject. he didn't seem too open yet so i didn't push it. all he said was that they drifted apart. i have a feeling that he's still in the process of getting over the 4 year marriage. afterall he actually called her his "wife" when (hopefully) by now she's supposed to be his ex-wife.

i'm not holding my breath for this one. maybe he himself might not be ready. and maybe despite all my evolving, i may not be ready for a divorcee either. but that said, if he asks, i will definitely meet up with him again.

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this guy emailed me some time ago and i didn't respond for a month. i admit that i had been contemplating. i wasn't really attracted to him, that was probably what held me back that long. and yet i couldn't deny that i had to give him props for originality in his email. he seemed fun and i was in the confused state with the ad-man so in the end i decided to reply to his email. he graciously accepted my apology for not responding earlier and we exchanged a few emails and brief IM conversations before he asked me out for dinner on saturday.

the indian lawyer was more attractive than i expected and we did have a pretty good time talking and laughing. we even wound up clubbing which i suppose is quite strange for a first date. it certainly felt strange that he should see me in my "party persona" so soon. anyhow it was all pretty fun though i think i might be getting the just friends vibe. afterall he didn't think to send me home in a taxi when it was 4am nevermind me not living on the same side of town as he does. anyhow if he asks me out again, i'd definitely go out with him.

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while i was out with the indian lawyer, i received a text from a guy at bout 3am. he's a guy that i got to know from the online dating site who i've been IMing pretty regularly. i don't really know that much bout him (other than besides a day job, he's also a drummer in a band), our IM conversations have always been a lil flirty. but recently we've been texting each other. and so at 4am in the morning we were texting each other. it's not a booty call, it was 'coz he was aware of my nocturnal behavior. he called me at 5am and we chatted for an hour. the conversation was better than i expected.

drummer boy and i have been talking bout meeting up but so far nothing has been definite. he doesn't seem like he can plan too much and i'm not sure bout him. but so far, i'm okay with the way things are. with us IMing or texting throughout the day.

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and in line with trying to keep myself busy with new boys, i have another date lined up on tuesday and this new guy who i find interesting emailed me. sometimes i think it's tiring... trying to make new connections with new guys. and it's especially tiring when there i thought that i had made a great connection with the ad-man and allowed myself to be deluded for an instance that maybe that was all the connection i really needed to make. i guess i don't have a choice but to keep trying to "serial date" or whatever and hope that eventually something works out somehow.