london and me

i was early... so i stood there waiting for him. i was trying to stay calm but for some strange reason, i was a lil nervous bout meeting him.

then he walked towards me... my london guy friend.

we hugged as we said hi. i have always loved his hugs. tight and long with a lil rub on the back. this time it was a rub on my back and waist. maybe my heels threw off our height difference.

but that wasn't the only thing that seemed off during the night. sure we talked and sometimes even pretty well so, but there also seemed to be some silence in between. almost like neither one of us knew what to say to each other. i could feel the wheels in my head turning just trying to figure out our next topic of conversation. he's always been a tad on the quieter side but for normally chatty me, sometimes the silence can be odd.

however through the course of our conversation i did find out that he left his bro to stay with some family here while he went to stay with the other gir's family. that very good friend of his that he used to have a thing with earlier this year. the girl that i've never really liked 'coz i find her fake and she cheated on her ex boyfriend who was a friend of mine. he told me before that he isn't with her anymore but really who knows. and i'm not sure what i feel either. maybe i no longer fancy him in that way anymore.

but i still had fun. the dinner and then playing pool. maybe we need something to distract us in order to truly get along.

when it was time to leave i walked 5 bus stops up the road in order to accompany him to his bus stop. i didn't have to but i wanted to. we said our goodbyes with another hug. this time not as tight nor as long and i think i missed the lil rub on my back.