i'm woman, hear me meow

there was a time when shy (now ex) colleague and i were IMing up a storm on a daily basis. but then he went to university and started leading a busier life. well that happens and i get that.

we haven't chatted much in the last 6 months but recently we had one of our long IM conversations that we used to have. it was so great to talk and share with him. i've missed that.

but it also seems that in this short span of time, he's grown up. and it was almost shocking (and somewhat disturbing) that our conversation found him, a sweet, shy, innocent 22 year old, giving me advice on 'dating'.

i told him bout the whole incident with dj guy and shy (now ex) colleague's advice could be essentially summed up in 3 words...

jump and grab

yes. he basically told me that if i still liked dj guy and if i thought that he probably still liked me, then i had to put the moves on dj guy. i had to bring out the primal animalistic side of me (i say the lioness 'coz i'm a leo haha!) and show dj guy that i wanted him. 'coz at the end of the day, dj guy is still a guy... a man.

but shy (now ex) colleague and i both know that i'm too wussy for that. this so-called lioness is really more of a lil kitty cat who thinks too much and would probably pass out if she had to so blatantly put the moves on a guy.

and even though it's been a few days since that conversation, i think my subconscious is actively thinking of doing just what my shy (now ex) colleague suggested.

last night i dreamt that when dj guy gave me our usual hug and cheek kisses, i turned my head and gave him a peck on the lips. and he was stunned and basically said something along the lines of "what do you think you're doing?!" which of 'coz made me panic and apologise.

sigh... i'm still so into him that it's killing me...