au revoir 2007, bienvenue 2008

it's amazing how time flies... and yet another year is coming to an end... and it's always around this time that i get nostalgic...

2007 has been purely crazy. a lot of things happened and didn't happen but it was almost always eventful in some way or another.

on the guy front... this year has seen a lot more introductions of new guys than any other year. as well as more alcohol, more hormones, more questionable behavior, more mistakes, more emotional attachment, more open honesty and more heartbreak. it was also a year that saw more exits of guys. as well as less discernment, less holding back and less bothering bout questionable behaviors.

so i told myself that i had till the end of the year to get rid of the baggage and residual emotions for past guys.

afterall why bother with a guy who says that you guys should go out but doesn't follow up on it. someone who doesn't tell you how he feels bout you after you've pretty much expressly told him how you feel bout him. and then when a drunken mistake happens after his best friend hits on you, acts as though you've utterly wronged him beyond redemption even though there was no commitment in the first place. and yet despite the fact that he's so wrong on paper, manages to make you somehow 'fall' for him which ultimately leaves you heartbroken.

and why bother with a guy who confuses you so much on whether you guys are on a 'date' or not 'coz you guys go dutch. someone whose company you obviously enjoy and who seems to enjoy your company as well but you can't even tell if it's totally platonic or platonic bordering on the maybe future not so platonic. and yet somehow he worms his way into your heart. makes you open that heart in a long while. only to leave you wondering where he's suddenly disappeared to 'coz he hasn't replied to your text wishing him happy birthday.

and definitely don't bother with a guy who you've liked for almost 11 years ago. the guy who you would have been willing to give up all that sometimes meaningless partying and making out with random guys. so what if he means that much to you? he's never even been interested.

so yes, the only 3 guys to have ever really made it to my heart. each and every one of 'em has to be yanked out.

tabula rasa. it's time for a new slate...

and as we say hello to 2008, i wonder what next year will be like. will i resolve to be good this time (goodness knows i wasn't exactly all that good in 2007) or will i continue on with even more antics 'coz 2007 was certainly a record high.

as every new year dawns, i can't help but remember what my good friend joked with me 2 years ago...

a new beginning with a new clean slate. ready to dirty it up?

hmm... i don't know... i just might be...