these could very well have been my very worst dates

recently i've been addicted to reading myveryworstdate.com where people get to share their worst date story be it the first date or a date occuring somewhere further down along the dating process.

while the stories were shocking, hilarious and essentially made me breathe a sigh of relief that for the most part, my dates were never that bad, it also did start me thinking about my own "horror" dating stories.

there was the poet guy and the first date where i was thankful that a movie spared us 2 hours of having to make smalltalk and where i actually exaggerated feeling under the weather to cut the date short simply 'coz i wasn't attracted to him at all and was fighting the urge to jump a mile away every time he made any light physical contact.

there was the touchy brit and the first date where he quizzed me on an array of topics, touched my arm, thigh, hand, neck within 5 mins of meeting him and was unnecessarily impatient with the service staff at the bar.

there was the annoying mouth-clicker and the first date where he kept on clicking his mouth in an annoying manner, implied that me pushing myself in my sport meant that i had something to prove to the world and where i was so bored and annoyed that i just bout chased him off to his next appointment with his student.

and of 'coz not forgetting prick04 and that particular valentine's day date (though not on the actual day itself) in 2004 which marked the original crash and burn that left me "scarred" sufficiently that it took me 6 months before i could even tell my best friend what happened. though of 'coz subsequently there was so much drama with him that it didn't even need actual dates for him to have been the worst person i've ever dated. ever.

so yes, dating is definitely hard and sometimes it seems like you meet a whole lot more frogs than potential princes. but in the end, i came out of all these bad dating situations pretty alright. and in some weird way i'm "glad" that it happened 'coz it just added to my dating "experience" and certainly did make for some interesting (and perhaps horrifying) stories.

besides, you gotta know the bad to appreciate the good right?

just get it over and done with

my recent foray back into the world of online dating had me IMing 2 guys pretty regularly. one was a guy who found me on the online dating site. he's asked me out for coffee a couple of times but somehow i wasn't all that keen enough to rearrange my schedule. but today i did.

not that i'm keen. i knew right from the start that i wasn't keen. but i think it was just a natural progression from the IMing. so when he asked again to meet up, i finally agreed. afterall it was just a quick coffee for bout an hour near my place since he was around the area to teach one of his students. i thought that perhaps this was a good time to just get over and done with this meeting up thing.

it may have only been for slightly more than an hour... but gosh did the hour feel long. as expected i was not attracted to him physically at all. and honestly i got irritated with the conversation especially when he implied that me pushing myself in my sport meant that i had something to prove to the world.

i was bored and annoyed and counting the minutes while trying not to look at my watch too obviously. thankfully the annoying mouth-clicker had to leave by a certain time and i just bout chased him off to his appointment with his student.

even though it wasn't fun at all (and due to some timing issue i actually wound up paying for his drink and decided not to claim back from him 'coz it wasn't that much anyway), i don't regret meeting the annoying mouth-clicker. i think it was just something that needed to be done. a certain short 'sacrifice' i needed to make so that it would be easier to make up stories bout why i was busy for the indefinite future.

and as much as i hate to admit it, it was also to trick my warped mind into thinking that the rich kid isn't as big a deal to me as i initially thought. yeah well, i don't think that's really working. i'm still remembering that the last time we IMed was on monday where he said he would let me know if he was heading out on wednesday. i'm trying to ignore him on IM but i already caved in today with no response.

add it to the mix that i've been thinking bout dj guy again recently. there's just something bout him that makes me miss him... sigh...

i definitely need a new guy to makeout with... or maybe a makeout session with a certain few guys from the past...

needing a constant high

it's amazing how barely after a few days of having a pretty crazy weekend, i start feeling bored and restless all over again.

maybe my tolerance level or quest for excitement has gone to a new high. 'coz it seems like it doesn't matter if i've had a pretty recent crazy time, i always find that i'm still bored. it's like i need a constant high.

so recently i started checking out the world of the online dating once again. sure, i've talked to 2 guys since. one, who has asked me out for coffee a couple of times but somehow i'm not all that keen enough to rearrange my schedule as yet. the other, i'm sorta interested in but he's not exactly rushing to ask me out. such is life.

but what i've realised this time round is that the amounts of winks, emails and IM adds are far lesser than my previous attempts at online dating. does this mean that i've already just bout gone through the entire pool of potential online dates? and even the non-potential no-way-i'd-even-date-'em dates?

and while logging in would have immediately bumped me up in the ranks of searches and gotten me quite a few hits in the past... this time, i'm not even getting any responses despite logging in a couple of times pretty regularly. i mean if i'm not getting stressed out bout online dating as i normally do, then that must mean that i'm not seeing much action there.

so then what's the most exciting thing that happened recently?

a brief IM conversation with the mind-reader...

the mind-reader: no wonder you weren't at the office... i was waiting in the toilet
jo: hahaha! darn!

ha! i only wished that he was waiting in the bathroom or wherever for me.