no chances

sometimes i wonder if i'm "sabotaging" my chances for some random stories...

like when i passed up a chance to meet up with not-so-shy texan in order to meet up with my party girl and of 'coz tipsy text dj guy.

today just as i was leaving the office, not-so-shy texan texted to ask me out to a club for drinks later at night. incidentally it was the place where we first met and made out. and one of the places where he hangs out on wednesday nights. so what did i do instead? i decided to head home. okay well i could have gone to meet him except that he was meeting his work friends first before heading to the club and he only invited me to join his work friends a lil too late... when i was already on my way home.

yesterday my not-so-platonic friend kinda invited me out for drinks with his colleagues. what did i do instead? i kept my appointment for a trial personal training lesson at the gym. then again it's obvious that my not-so-platonic friend has found other females to behave inappropriately with. other younger females. yeah well he's very wrong so i really shouldn't feel anything anyhow.

and then there were the 2 calls and a text that i purposely missed from youthful-looking guy. it's funny 'coz even though his number is saved in my phone (as kinda a reminder not to respond), for some strange reason my phone is not showing up his name when he calls or texts. it's like my phone is boycotting him all on its own.

and then suddenly it hit me that the last time i had a makeout session was over a month ago! and the last time i had a good makeout session was over 3 months ago!! that's just crazy!

yes, a lot of fun i'm certainly not having...

look before you leap

i just found out today for the first time that the leap day tradition is that the women proposes to the men.

gosh isn't that scary? i mean i already have enough problems as it is trying to call a guy or even ask him out. ask him to marry me?? that definitely brings new meaning to the word "leap"!

not that i have anyone i would even ask to marry (i'm still working on the whole asking him out thing... and him being any arbituary him of a guy who happens to catch my fancy...), but i can't help but wonder if i don't do it (whatever it is) today, then would i have to wait for another 4 years? when i'm that "ripe old age" of 32...

well i guess i'm just hoping that it all happens for me the traditional way (as opposed to the leap day traditional way). where essentially the guy "does all the work".

better yet if he actually calls and asks me out...

(disclaimer: this only works if i actually like this him that i speak of... unlike youthful-looking guy who has called me every single day this week and i have missed every single of his calls on purpose)

almost

i'm almost strangely disappointed...

i just realised that i got de-friended and possibly IM-blocked by the guy from australia who i was flirting with via the online social utility. and the thing i find myself thinking bout is that that means i no longer have someone who strips on the webcam to my almost amusement. and that means less fodder for this blog. great, does that mean that i now actually have to find a real-life person to 'date' so that it doesn't get boring around here??

i guess it really shows how pathetic i am when i get all excited (and no not in that way haha!) bout a guy who strips on the webcam. but hey, it was interesting... how many times does a girl get that? okay don't answer that 'coz i just might get envious that more guys aren't stripping for me haha! (*note that this is not an open invitation to all the pervs in the world)

oh well i guess it was fun while it lasted...

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in other (far less exciting) news, youthful-looking guy has been continuing to call me daily. and i have been continuing to ignore his calls. he's almost starting to annoy me. and yes, i realise i'm being a wuss here by just ignoring him. it's like i'm taking the 'guy' route... and i almost feel bad. afterall i myself have been on the receiving end of many a missed call and/or unanswered text. but hey my excuse is that i was tipsy... what's his excuse? unless he's tipsy at all times of the day.

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i find myself once again in that almost restless feeling. the kind that got me to even start online 'dating' to begin with. i'm trying not to go down that route again just yet. but yet i find myself thinking that i really need to get in the swing of 'dating' again (this is even assuming i was ever in the swing of 'dating' ever) and i have no idea where to find potential candidates. seriously no idea. i think maybe they are just hiding... darn!

look how far we've come

the weekend was spent not crazy partying. well i mean i did meet up with my party girl and the yummy mommy on friday night for some of our usual drinking. except that since i had to wake up early the next day, it was a real quiet night for me.

however, i did actually felt like making up for it on saturday night... except that neither my party girl nor the yummy mommy felt like heading out. and the mind-reader didn't reply to my text either. i wouldn't have minded just chilling out with some drinks with him. but i guess he's just not interested...

but well apparently youthful-looking guy is... he called me at least 5 times on saturday. all of which i missed... either intentionally or unintentionally. finally i decided that i had to call him back. he wanted to meet up, i was too busy. in fact i am too busy for the indefinite future. just before our brief conversation ended, he made a mistake in annoying me by telling me that i could consider dressing more formally and not wearing multiple earrings to work. and if there's something i don't like, it's when people are being rigid. i'm a big fan of the relaxed work dresscode. he might have been even more shocked if he got to know me in the last few years when my job allowed me for a really relaxed dresscode and i sported crazy traffic stopping hair.

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so i have been randomly flirting with a guy from australia via the online social utility. and i just added him as a friend as well as on my IM. i guess i didn't know just what i was getting myself into...

he has a webcam... and well... let's just say it was the most interesting webcam viewing i've ever had... and while i'm not particularly into that sorta thing and i think he's just another hornball, i have to admit it was all rather amusing.

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in other news today was my good friend's wedding.

as i made my way there, i texted my best friend...

jo: on the way to *insert good friend's name* wedding and already i'm starting to feel emotional. it's like gosh i've known her for 13 years and she's a good friend and now it's like feeling she's all grown up and i'm also so happy for her. gosh i'm a sap haha!
jo's best friend: all will be fine and you'll make out with someone haha!

i definitely had a good laugh at that. trust my best friend to remind me of the one and only time i made out with someone at a wedding.

well my good friend's wedding wasn't going to be one of 'em.

it was a simple traditional indian wedding ceremony. she giggled at some points and both of 'em looked close to tears at other times. and yet even in the midst of that as well as the flurry of relatives scrambling to take all kinds of pictures to document the joyous occasion, it was sweet and nearly brought me to tears. it made me think of the time when we first got to know each other waay back then. how we used to sit next to each other in class and chatted. time just flew right by. and now she's married. it just seems so surreal to see how far we've come.

i couldn't be happier for her.

going out with myself would have been more fun

in the last week when i first met youthful-looking guy at the valentine's day massacre party, he has been calling, texting and IMing me constantly.

honestly it got to the point where i really did not want to pick up his 6th missed (on purpose) call or to reply to his texts. and i didn't particularly take too well to his terms of endearment via IM such as "my beauty" and "honey buns".

but i figured that after he kept on asking so many times to meet up, i would just meet up with him. and so we made plans for yesterday night.

my original plan for the night was to enjoy a chill out time in town with myself. i really should have just stuck with that.

the meet up with him was rather boring. and physically he did nothing for me. we had fast food for dinner... he from one store, me from another. and incidentally i paid my own way... not that fast food even costs that much.

then we went shopping for a pair of swimming goggles for him. he took 45 mins. i kid you not. 45 mins. for a freaking pair of swimming goggles. it's not like it even costs that much. for the amount of time he spent, you would have thought he was choosing a wife (not that choosing a wife should only take 45 mins...).

after that point i just really wanted to head on home. he insisted on sending me home on the bus. honestly i would have much preferred to be plugged into my music and napping on my way back home. there just wasn't a whole lot of interesting conversation and i found myself zoning out at times or just staring incredulously at some weird thing he said.

he texted me right after he sent me home...

youthful-looking guy: gdnite, it's been a pleasure taking you out 2 nite. take care. :) sweet dreams n God bless
youthful-looking guy: i wanna go out with u again

i decided not to reply.

a massacre party

it turned out to be a great valentine's day. one of the very best i've ever had.

my party girl, the yummy mommy and a few other girl friends went to the valentine's day massacre party at a club. it was really fun.

when we walked in, they gave us all a pair of handcuffs and said that in order to get the free beers, we had to be handcuffed to somebody. so they weren't exactly the fluffy handcuffs that i like but i was still massively excited by 'em haha! we wound up having a good time handcuffing ourselves to each other in some strange 5-way.

since we were early, there was also a free tarot card reading. not that i really believe this stuff but damn she was pretty spot on.

i could ask 2 questions... so i asked bout love and career.

she told me that for love, even though my numbers (based on my birthday, i'm a number 6) said that i was romantic and even sexual (or was it sensual? haha!), my tarot cards showed that i was pretty happy being single and that the environment around me made it difficult to find love. which is true 'coz i always say i have lack of opportunity. and she told me that if i have been in love before, that i should truly move on and put it behind me. i don't know if i have been in love before, but when she said that i thought bout someone. but she said that this year i would have an exciting relationship though i may not want to fully commit. she sees my true love coming in a few years time and she said that he wouldn't be local haha!

and bout career, well there's no real place for those details here...

in general she said that my numbers showed that this year will be a year of crossroads and a lot of decisions to be made.

besides the rather interesting tarot card reading, i also had a good time dancing and having fun.

there was this guy who kept hanging around me, even giving me a pink heart-shaped balloon. he asked for my number and called me later to see if i had reached home and also asked for my IM address. he seemed nice. rather youngful looking for someone a year older than i am. but at the same time he just seemed boring.

on the other hand there was this other guy... a total player. he must have hit on at least 6 girls that night alone. but he was also fun to just play around with. he tried to kiss me a couple of times. he only succeeded once on the lips when he caught me off guard. but seriously, he was just too hilarious to even take seriously at all.

but all in all it was a really good valentine's day night out.