oh my dreams

dreams are weird things. sometimes they seem like extensions from our daily life, other times they are totally unbelievably out of this world and then sometimes maybe they are part of our subconscious minds.

recently i dreamt of out of ex-office eye candy. which of 'coz is so weird and random. other than talking to him briefly at his wedding over 2 weeks ago, i haven't seen or talked to him in over a year. so why then would i suddenly dream of him? i mean i wasn't thinking of him... right?

the dream was sweet... in an almost adulterous sorta way. he was married as he is in real life. but we were a lot closer like we aren't in real life. in my dream, there were conversations and cuddles though we never actually kissed. i mean i did say that he was married. but it doesn't mean that i didn't want to. oh that makes me such a bad person.

no doubt bout it, i have always been physically attracted to out of ex-office eye candy. and character and personality wise, he's pretty great too. but i've long stopped being interested in him the way i used to be. maybe the wedding brought back some latent feelings? albeit at a very delayed time... or maybe i'm going through that whole "song and dance" feeling where you're close to someone (in this case i'm really talking bout being emotionally close to the ad-man) and yet not knowing where it's heading, or if it's even heading anywhere at all. or maybe i'm simply just missing a good makeout session, as primal as that.

so once again i have to thank my warped mind for this...

candy wedding

the date was saved and it finally arrived... the day of out of ex-office eye candy's wedding.

unfortunately i didn't think i went there with as much of a "big bang" that i had hoped for, no thanks to the fact that i was still battling the tail end of a nasty flu bug. and while i would have much preferred to have had some totally fabulous job to "throw in their faces", it was nice to meet up with some ex-colleagues.

that said, i was glad to be able to share in out of ex-office eye candy's big day.

the wedding was sweet, just as weddings should be. as the bride walked down the isle, i turned to watch the groom, just like i usually like to do. and the look on out of ex-office eye candy's face was enough to turn me to mush. he was beaming, his typical bright sunny smile brighter than usual. and then as he watched his bride slowly approaching closer, i could tell that he was getting closer to tears.

he was near tears as well as he said his vows. and he was also all choked up with emotion when he sang a beautiful rendition of steven curtis chapman's i will be here as a special surprise item for his wife. i was close to tears myself.

yes, i'm just a sap at weddings.

and now i'm doing all i can not to think bout what song i will like to have playing in my own wedding...

saving the date

since i resigned from a previous job almost exactly a year ago, out of office eye candy and i have never really contacted each other. sure i see him on IM relatively often and maybe in the last year we might have IMed very briefly a couple of times... but for the most part it just seems like whatever rapport we had before just fizzled out like so many office friendships do once one person leaves.

today i received an email from him. well a mass email... a "save the date" to his wedding.

i'm no longer interested in him the way i was before despite knowing all along then that he had a girlfriend and was in a relationship so serious that he was planning to marry her. i still think he's a great guy and i'm happy for him. the single world has just lost one awesome guy to marriage.

but i can't help but feel a lil strange. the strange you feel when one of your ex crushes gets married. the strange you feel when after such a long time of not seeing him, you see one of his wedding pics in the email where he and his bride look so happy and in love.

so i guess i'm saving the date. and come 21st june, i just have to make sure that i look so fabulous that even if out of ex-office eye candy doesn't "regret" not choosing me, maybe i will catch the eye of some other awesome guy.

times like these

obviously no one told someone that you can't ask someone for their hospital ward number and then don't visit or send flowers or whatever. i was perfectly okay with the fact that he replied to my text message and inquired how i was. then he asked for my hospital ward number. and that made me anticipate him visiting me, sending me flowers... something. but that didn't happen. even though he did reply after i texted him to let him know that i was discharged.

sometimes it's times like these when you know who are the people who truly care.

i'm not writing off someone as an uncaring person 'coz at least he did reply. i'm just noting that he has more growing up to do. (side note: i just read from his blog that he's intending to join the same triathlon i'm interested in this year. it will be his second triathlon. i was already impressed when he went for his first sprint triathlon last year. now he's going for the olympic distance. wow! i'm really impressed. i myself am definitely not ready for that...)

pool boy remembered to text me the day before i was warded. i didn't expect that. he does continue to surprise me a lil. he didn't follow up after though. i told out of office eye candy at the last minute and he replied but that was it. i guess i would have expected a lil bit more given that we have a fair bit of work interaction and we're also somewhat friends. i told another guy colleague that i'm pretty close to at the last minute as well and he followed up with me a few days later apologising that he didn't have the time to visit me but was hoping that i was doing well. and perhaps even more strange was that the key account executive actually called me minutes before i was warded 'coz he just saw my email. that i totally didn't expect.

but it's also times like these where you realise that all this doesn't always matter as long as you've got the people closest to you by your side... gotta love family and friends.

i dream of candy

i like personality tests which was why i was happy to find out that my office was doing 'em.

"actually *insert out of office eye candy's real name* was the one who suggested this," my boss man later confided in me. "he wants to find out if you like him."

"wh...what??" i was stunned to say the least.

"so do you like him?" my boss man pressed on.

i was still too shocked to speak.

"he likes you and is coming out of a relationship. so do you like him?" added my boss man.

i thought bout it for a while playing it like i even had to think bout it before answering, "yes. tell him yes."

and then it all went smoothly.

i was just as i've always been with him though perhaps a lil bit more nervous. he was just as great a guy as he's always seemed. it was working out and all good.

then i woke up.

i was a lil disappointed 'coz it felt so real. sometimes the lines of dreamscape and reality are a lil blurry.

lil miss naughty girl

yesterday night i had a tobacco event for work. i'm not exactly sure what was the purpose other than an excuse to drink and have fun. and drink and have fun was exactly what we did.

a whole bunch of other colleagues were invited and these are the craziest bunch. the minute i stepped into the bar where the event was held, i was presented with a tequila shot by those guys. in my years working in the company, i have already somehow made a name for myself for being able to drink well. so i downed the tequila, had dinner and then downed more tequila and other mixes.

the conversations always seem so much more interesting when everyone is a lil tipsy.

at one point out of office eye candy came over to my couch to have a chat with me. but not before telling another colleague (regarding me), "i have to court her now or else i may not get another chance to court her."

inside i wanted to tell him that he could court me anytime.

we had a good chat. and later we even took a polaroid together. fun times.

i also had quite a nice chat with the new accountant. my guy colleague (who wasn't invited for this event) was right. the new accountant is pretty nice to talk to. and i may be mistaken but i think he was flirting with me at some points.

i think everyone was flirting with each other. one of my colleagues who is based out of the office was also flirting. i've gone out with him and another female colleague also based out of office before to play pool and we had great fun. but this time our conversation totally took a different spin when he brought up the topic of past relationships and what we wanted in a partner.

i was in full sparkle mode. this is my element.

but then things took a crazy twist...

my colleagues had all left while i was still waiting for my party girl to contact me 'coz she was having dinner with her boyfriend who had just come to town. our key account executive of our tobacco supplier convinced me to stay there till i heard from my party girl. so i did. and it was crazy.

he piled on the drinks and we were laughing and chatting the whole time. it was surprising how well we got along. he's too much like me that it's dangerous. we even managed to talk a lil bout more personal stuff though i could tell that he was reluctant to talk more bout his marriage which i gathered didn't go well at all since he seemed near to tears.

later another of his colleagues joined us. he was the polaroid photographer who we were all previously joking around with. he's married with a cute daughter. but he also told me that if he wasn't, he would go after me. he didn't understand why i was single 'coz i had all these good qualities such as steamy eyes (yes he said that!), looks and a fun personality. it's a good thing that i've had quite a bit of experience in married men hitting on me so i could just easily laugh it off and say married men is not my thing.

but the 3 of us talked and got on easily though it was pretty obvious that the key account executive and i definitely had chemistry. in fact the polaroid photographer readily pointed that out. i got kinda uneasy when the key account executive would keep staring at me so i would look away. he straight up called me on it and asked if i had difficulty with eye contact with a guy. i told him that it depends. but didn't tell him that i only have difficulty when i feel the guy's sparks but am not sure if that's the way i want to go. i mean i'm not sure bout his marriage status and he's my key account executive. we have to work together. that just sounds like potential complication. plus i don't want anyone at work to know. he dared me to look him right in the eyes and 'coz i don't back down like that, i do.

later the polaroid photographer drove us back since we all lived near to each other. i sat in the middle of 'em in the front seat of his van. the key account executive kept tickling me. and even though i'm normally rather ticklish, apparently i wasn't this time round. and he kept trying to make me ticklish. dangerous thing to do since he himself is really ticklish. but i've learnt that tickling is apparently one way a guy uses to try and touch a girl. well he didn't touch anywhere inappropriate even though the tickling itself probably wasn't very appropriate to begin with. later he walked me to my door. and we said bye.

thank goodness nothing exactly happened. that would have been waay too complicated. i'm really just hoping that nobody in the office will hear anything bout this even though a bunch already know that i stayed back at the bar. i admit that i'm a lil worried... i don't know...

candy girl

friday was our company's annual dinner & dance. it was a pretty fun time. as usual i was more bout going to different tables, chatting with different people than being in any part of a clique. it's like school days all over again. and that's not necessarily a good thing... not being a real part of any group.

one of my frequent table stops was at out of office eye candy's table. i chatted to some other people in that table. i chatted with him. he brought his girlfriend to the event. this is the second time i've seen her. the first time was over a year ago when he brought her to our then boss man's farewell party. i remembered thinking then that she didn't seem like out of office eye candy's type. and when i saw her this time, i was still on that thought. she's sweet looking with long hair and fair skin, though perhaps a bit plain and looks a tad bigger than him. she was also rather quiet in comparison with his bubbly nature. perhaps opposites really do attract.

they weren't into excessive pda but it was still just a bit weird to see 'em holding hands and arms and being sweet. no i wasn't jealous. it was more like i was going all 'awww' inside. i'm thinking that perhaps he's gonna marry her eventually. afterall he's mentioned before that even though he's not ready to get married just yet, he's definitely thinking bout it.

so what am i thinking bout?

well it isn't bout out of office eye candy. we still joke around and get along great but that's just all there is to it. we're just sorta friends. maybe i'm still thinking bout someone. even after this weekend where he didn't turn up for the christmas event meeting and didn't even tell me despite being the one who 'brought' me to the event. thank goodness i'm perfectly adapt at making friends and had fun with the new girl friends i had made.

but what i'm thinking bout more are my new challenges in life that i have undertaken and seem to have undertaken that will occupy me for at least the next year and hopefully beyond.

and strangely i'm thinking bout someone's brother. not in that whole i'm interested in him kinda way though he is cute and amazingly buffed unlike someone. but he's a triathlete who is joining the ironman and i would love to talk more to someone like that.

attracted and unattracted

this weekend was interesting...

****

i had a dream bout out of office eye candy. in my dreamscape we were pretty good friends and he told me to read his blog. when i did, i found out that the latest post was bout him proposing to his girlfriend. in my dream i remember feeling a lil upset but at the same time thinking bout how this meant that i had to give up any feelings for him. in real life i've never even heard bout him mentioning a blog before. and as for proposing to his girlfriend, i'm not even sure if they are marriage kind of serious. perhaps it's just a delayed reaction of what my boss said before.

****

i went for a swim and got picked up by this guy. it's kinda unnerving 'coz i had no makeup on and was wearing less clothes than i normally would be when meeting a guy for the first time. his opening line was to tell me that he liked my hair. it's always the hair. but we got along pretty well. he asked me for coffee after our swim but since i already had plans he asked to exchange numbers instead. he hasn't contacted me yet but it's okay 'coz to be honest i'm not really all that attracted.

but i guess this almost makes me rethink what i said previously bout how what i've been preoccupied with lately isn't exactly helping me to be any less single. i guess i kinda thought of my pursuits as a more solitary kinda thing.

****

later at night i went with my party girl and my aussie ex jim beam girl to a house party hosted by a guy my aussie ex jim bean girl once hooked up with recently. he's friends with a group of guys who we know from a bar since one of the guys is the manager there. i had never actually met the host of the party before though i've certainly heard bout him. when we were introduced he looked at me and went wow and told me that i was hot. he kept telling me that throughout the night which i thought was kinda laying it on too much. and he was telling his other guy friends as well which felt a bit weird. he likened me to a hockey girl, whatever that means. i found him hot but he was also obviously a player since his supposed girlfriend was at the party too.

the party was pretty fun. sometimes house parties are better than dancing it out in the clubs. i talked to a few guys. but somehow i don't know how it happened but i managed to wind up on the bar manager's lap. we were on the couch and i was lying on top of him with him nuzzling my neck from behind. we never kissed though. which i suppose is kinda odd since he asked me to go home with him. but i didn't. he's a bad boy. and he tells me that but i've always found him pretty attractive.

as i was going to head home i somehow wound up sharing a taxi with one of the guys from the party. we were introduced but we never actually talked. but in the taxi he leaned over and kissed me a couple of times. a disappointing kisser i must admit. perhaps just to be polite he asked for my number and i gave it. i'm not attracted to him though. i probably should have just kissed the bar manager. but everyone was right there and i kinda like to stay away from such public displays. i don't really want to be the next topic of conversation and i already know these guys do tell each other everything. my aussie ex jim beam girl found that out first hand. i'm curious to see what happens the next time i meet the bar manager. i'm hoping that we might actually get to kiss soon. but i'm no fool, i don't have any expectations of him. he's just a bad boy.

anyhow i had a good time. even though i did come out of it with unexplainable bruises on both sides of my upper arms. my only possible theory is that it came from the guy who came up behind me unannounced and gave me a voluntary massage. i'm not sure who he was but he must have been stronger than i realised. then again i'm not bout to turn down a massage especially when i'm aching after a long swim and short run.

that lil green eyed monster

out of office eye candy dropped by the office yesterday afternoon. we managed to have a bit of a chat and a lil bit more as we took the bus out to the train station.

it was his first time on this bus since it was only recently that he deregistered his car and joined the ranks of public transportation commuters. i've sat in his car loads of times but it was the first time i took the bus with him. it was kinda intersting. we were in closer proximity while sitting in the bus and there were a couple of knee bumping occurences followed by "oops i'm sorry" apologies.

in the course of our conversation, he mentioned that he had actually dropped by the office earlier so that he could meet another colleague in the office and go out for a late lunch. i've always known that he got along well with her (i mean this guy gets along with almost everyone) but i didn't know that they were at the let's-meet-up-for-lunch kind of get along well stage. in fact he himself said that the lunch company was great and they talked like old friends.

now i like this colleague of mine. she's my age, fun and interesting to talk to. i actually get along with her pretty well even though we don't have much opportunities to chat. i can totally understand why she and out of office eye candy would get along well. but sue me for being slightly irrational 'coz i can't help but feel a teeny tiny bit jealous. it's so crazy since he's not even my boyfriend or whatever. and she's married. and i usually claim that i'm not the jealous type. well at least i'm not the crazy jealous type. maybe what i'm feeling at the moment is 'jealous' that i'm not his only good pal in the office. which in itself is just crazy irrational behavior on my part. i mean i get along pretty well with some other guys in the office and based out of office as well. and besides i still think that out of office eye candy talks to me differently. at least that was what my close ex colleague (who was also pretty close to out of office eye candy) told me that she noticed.

oh well... i'm sorta over that feeling now though... i'm just being silly.

a birthday for an eye candy

it's out of office eye candy's birthday today.

and like the good friend that i am and would like to be, i called him to wish him. he was kinda surprised that i remembered. i told him that he shared the same birthday as another friend of mine. but what i didn't tell him was that even if he didn't, i would still remember it 'coz i cared enough to remember or at least to note it down in my calendar.

we didn't talk long 'coz he was busy but he would be coming by to the office later for a presentation which i will also be attending. he said that we'll talk then. and i guess we probably will.

at least i hope so.

now if only i could join him for whatever birthday celebration plans he might have... haha! it would be nice to see him in a more purely social setting. but i'm probably just dreaming.

[edit]

so we talked a lil but not that much since we didn't wind up sitting together in the presentation. but we did exchange a smile from right across the room. and there was some usual suggestive joking that we usually do.

i told my boss man that it was out of office eye candy's birthday and he's turns 29 so the boss man asked him when he was going to get married. the boss man reminded us that he himself got married at 27, so he told out of office eye candy that if his girlfriend is the right one, then he should get married soon. out of office eye candy kinda just laughed it off and said but the job isn't the right one.

i don't know. maybe he'll get married soon. that will surely end this crush i have on him. i feel sorta like a bad person for liking someone who is unavailable even though i know that i haven't really actually done anything bout it so hence there's nothing actually really bad that i've done.

oh and i know where he will be celebrating tonight muahaha!

habits old and new

some old habits die hard.

friday was the first time in over a month that i was drinking till pretty late. but there wasn't any actual crazy partying. for the most part, my party girl, my aussie ex jim beam girl and i just hung out with some guys that we knew at a bar drinking.

the dj of a pub that i used to frequent was there as well. only now i learnt that he's no longer at that pub and in fact would be joining the bar that we were at and have recently been making frequent appearances again. this guy supposedly likes me even though he was there with a british girl. but he was drunk and kept on hugging me and kissing the side of my head. i just moved away and shrugged him off but didn't really say anything. then he came round hugging me from behind and said "kiss me". that was when i told him off with some choice words. how annoying.

later my party girl, my aussie ex jim beam girl and i went to a club that we usually go to dance it out and end the night. somehow in the midst of loads of people, some of whom i actually found rather cute, i realised that i just wasn't in the mood to make extended eye contact or even try to flirt. i just haven't been in that mood for quite a while now. i'm not sure if i've suddenly gone all bored in meeting new guys or that the realisation that these new guys i meet in clubs are mostly crap anyway is hitting me hard now.

i think somehow i've truly gone off partying. lately i just feel like i've been so-called partying mostly just to meet my party girl and my aussie ex jim beam girl 'coz it seems like we don't ever get a chance to meet up and catch up if we're not partying. now if i could find a way to grab 'em for a normal dinner or something, that would be nice.

****

it was nice of out of office eye candy to call and let me know that he would be popping by the office for a while near lunch time. when he was based in my department, we used to have lunch almost all the time. i've missed that. so i joked with him bout him driving me out for lunch. later he called to apologise that he was rushing and could only spend a short amount of time in the office so we couldn't do lunch. what a pity. it would be nice to lunch with him and chat like we used to.

****

well in the end he wound up staying around long enough for us to have a chat. in fact he stayed around long enough to borrow my computer to write a short work presentation slide and use my email program to send that file. yes apparently he makes himself at home at my desk haha!

happy busy days

today i'm a happy girl. nevermind that it's been a busy busy day and i'm tired. but i'm a happy girl and everything seems better today 'coz i'm happy.

why you may ask?

well in case anyone is curious, i have still been checking out someone's blog. and in his recent post he mentioned that he met up with 2 good guy friends of his and somehow the talk led to girlfriends. he does not have a girlfriend, he was quick to add. and me being all pathetic like that, is really happy bout his single status. as though that may give me some hope of some kind.

but more than that he talked bout his views on relationships and we're on the same page (as i've always known but it's good to confirm it again). in a nutshell, i've never believed in the 'other half' concept. i think you should be complete yourself and not look for someone to complete you but complement you.

he says that he's ready for such a relationship though he's not in any hurry and believes timing is everything. which once again echos my own views. much as i may seem like i'm in a hurry, i'm not exactly. i mean i'm ready for a relationship but that doesn't mean i'm gonna be in a real rush and pick any ole tom, dick and harry off the street. sure i talk and maybe even obsess bout various guys sometimes. i mean which girl doesn't? but doesn't mean i'm ready to settle though i'm ready to settle down.

****

out of office eye candy called me twice today. we didn't get to have much of a chat mainly 'coz the auditor was sitting right next to me for practically the whole day, quizzing me on the aspects of my work. but he and i still got in some of our usual friendly joking around. which led me to realise that if someone heard me on the phone with him, they probably wouldn't even realise that i was talking to a colleague. we just sound so much like friends when we're on the phone... except for the whole part where we have a work conversation that is.

a load of crap

out of office candy called me at work today.

nothing too surprising since he does call me relatively often for work related stuff which then usually progresses into a bit of a random chitchat.

today he called me purely 'coz he was bored. but since he waited till the end to tell me that he in fact didn't have any work agenda, i was wondering throughout the conversation what was the reason for his call. not that i don't love a lil chat with him. 'coz i do.

we made our usual work jokes and then he told me that he was off work yesterday 'coz of diarrhoea. which of 'coz led into a whole bunch of shit jokes. i told him that he was full of shit. he said that shit happens. i was like bullshit. and then i told him that he must be constipated today. which he laughed and agreed.

gotta love the fact that he's wacky like that and willing to humour me in my own wackiness.

funny times.

lil girl dreams

my cousin who lives in new zealand is currently in town so last night the fam went out for dinner and she brought along her 3 year old daughter and 1 year old son. they are one of the cutest kids ever.

despite being someone who goes back and forth on the decision of wanting kids of myself, i usually love other people's kids. as in i'm one of those who will volunatarily go up to 'em and play peek-a-boo and talk to 'em and whatnot.

so in between playing peek-a-boo with my cousin's 1 year old son, i had a chance to talk to her 3 year old daughter for a bit. this isn't exactly word for word for you'll get the gist of it...

jo: how old are you?
lil girl: 3
jo: and how old will you be next year?
lil girl: 4
jo: and the year after?
lil girl: 5
lil girl: and then a few more years i can get married

what the??

jo: so who will you marry?
lil girl: matthew

quick check with my cousin revealed that matthew is a lil boy of her age that she knows from church. in fact she doesn't only just know who she'll marry but she has decided where exactly she wants to marry and that she wants a pink dress and a tiara.

now while this is all very amusing, it's also starting to freak me out.

jo: so what age do you want to get married?
lil girl: 8
jo's cousin: hahaha! no way darling...

no way indeed.

and this is the reason why girls are so messed up sometimes. they've been planning their weddings since they were 3 while the boys (matthew included) are only interested in their trucks and cars.

and somehow my cousin's daughter is a forward lil girl who makes the first move... apparently she told lil matthew that she was learning dance and asked if he would dance with her at their wedding. i believe lil matthew was a lil freaked out and said something along the lines of that he doesn't like girls. ahh 3 year old boys...

but maybe i should take a page outta her book. i should go ask the next guy that i'm interested in (and am convinced that i'll marry) if he would dance with me at our wedding.

afterall i'm already 18 years past 8 years old. which we all know is the true age that we should get married...

****

since yesterday morning my neck muscles seemed to have cramped up causing me to be in a fair amount of pain and reduce a fair amount of mobility in my neck. so i took some time off in the afternoon yesterday to see a doctor.

this morning when i came to the office, i noticed a post-it note on my computer. it was from out of office eye candy.

"hi jo! *insert out of office eye candy's real name* says hi! can't turn neck huh?"

that post-it note really made me smile and made me go all 'awww'.

it's wrong 'coz i believe he still has a girlfriend... darn!

surprise me

the guy marvy the martian wanted to introduce to me is continuing to surprise me...

not that i think that marvy the martian wouldn't want to introduce to me a nice friend of his to me. afterall we're friends. but i guess first of all, i didn't expect to find his friend kinda cute. though that still maintains to be proven... a picture may tell a thousand words, but doesn't mean that all of 'em are true... secondly, i really didn't expect myself to feel that comfy talking to him.

marvy's setup decided to make the first move. he requested to be friends with me on a particular network. and then he sent me a friendly message. we messaged back and forth for a bit and i was surprised at how the messages seemed friendly and natural. there was kinda a genuine interest in knowing more bout each other. he then gave me his number and suggested meeting up... but no pressure. which i liked that. all to often i feel the pressure of the guy wanting to meet up when i haven't even sussed out what kind of vibe i was getting.

well i liked the vibe. it was a good vibe. so i gave him my number and told him to add me on IM.

our IM chat surprised me. i expected perhaps a certain level of awkwardness but there was none at all. we just got along really easily. i didn't feel like i had to think of something to say next. conversation just flowed naturally. before we logged off, he suggested meeting up again. i told him sure and to let me know.

well he did let me know... in fact we're supposed to meet up tomorrow. wow! 2 'dates' with 2 different guys on 2 consecutive days. we'll see what happens...

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so i asked out of office eye candy to my friend's single party like i said i would. i think this would be the first time i actually asked him 'out' in a more social capacity. we texted each other back and forth for a bit before he called me 'coz he was driving. he likes to talk on the phone when he's driving. turns out that he may not be able to make it 'coz he has a church event. anyhow it was a nice conversation. which was very unfortunately cut short 'coz my phone battery died! what bad timing. oh well... at least we got to chat. there's something bout both of us being out of the office and chatting on the phone that makes it seem more friendly. and i guess even if he doesn't make for the party, at least i let him know that i'm open to the idea of us hanging out outside of work. i really do want to be friends with him. i mean we're already pretty friendly in the workplace despite not being in the same office. but colleagues who meet socially is a different level entirely.

i'll be inviting my london guy friend to the party on friday as well when i meet him tonight. well my friend told me to bring the studs so i'm trying haha!

and the guys just get funnier...

i haven't been doing this as much as i used to... partying 2 nights in a row. but this weekend was one of those times.

the party girl and i along with some other friends attended a birthday party at a club and then in our typical fashion, we started club hopping. she picked up some british guy from the birthday party who was heading to another club. so we went to that club to meet up with him. while we were there, we hung out with some german intern guys and suggested that we go to the club we always wind up at. us girls can get in for free 'coz we know the bouncers and club owners but we couldn't bring the guys in on a free ride so we told 'em to line up and then meet us inside. we never saw 'em. but of 'coz that doesn't phase us and soon later we got to know some australian and new zealander basketball players.

and that's when the funny began...

somehow i wound up talking to this australian guy whose parents were originally from russia and serbia. not long after he started laying it on me... telling me that he liked that i was confident enough to show my pretty face with my 'do, that i had nice eyes and that he wanted to kiss me. he asked if i wanted to go someplace quieter so we could talk. but then also said that he can't talk to me 'coz it makes him want to kiss me more. goodness. like i would actually fall for that 'let's go someplace quieter so we could talk' line. sure we were in a club. but we were in a courtyard lounging around in a seat. it was plenty quiet for us to talk. any place quieter would probably mean his house. as for the wanting to kiss me thing. well i'm glad that at least he didn't grab me. i did consider if i should just kiss him, perhaps a friendly one... or maybe not. but then i decided to exercise a lil more restrain. i should probably stop kissing random club guys haha!

later the girls decided to head to the second level of the club. the guys said they'd join us and we thought they were right behind... but apparently not. doesn't matter we always find our own fun. so we were just dancing upstairs and having a good time. except that as i was walking past, some guy smacked my butt. i spun around, gave him a death look and smacked him right back. if you do that, don't expect me to not reciprocrate it. and then as we were seated, some guy from san francisco came over and talked to me and pretty much expected me to go out and find him on the dance floor. i was tired and too nice and comfy in my seat.

but that said, the funniest thing of all didn't happen with any of the guys i met that night. the funniest thing was the text messages...

the australian psychologist guy texted me. he was chilling out at home and knew that i was out partying.

australian psychologist guy: if you want to sleep you know where to find me
jo: if i want to sleep, i'll just go home

he has to be kidding.

then i texted my london guy friend. we haven't contacted since the last time i talked to him briefly on IM. at first i told myself not to contact him. afterall i did tell him that i was giving him priority during this time when he's here and that he should let me know whenever he can make it so we can meet up. the ball is in his court. but that night i was just a lil bored and thinking of him so i texted him

jo: hey! are you out tonight?

i never got a reply from him. i must be the one kidding myself.

****

out of office eye candy and i are definitely having some telepathy going on.

i was just thinking of calling him to ask him bout something when he called. i told him bout the coincidence. after we were done with the work issue he called me bout and joking around bout some other work stuff in general as we always do, he asked what i wanted to call him bout.

jo: i wanted to ask you something
out of office eye candy: no sorry i'm not free tonight
jo: hahaha! how bout friday?
out of office eye candy: maybe. i have to check my schedule.
jo: hahaha!

actually what i wanted to call him bout is regarding a club that he told me he went to which i haven't been to. my friend who is based in dubai is coming back on thursday to get married over the weekend and she was thinking of holding a bachelorette party on friday night and one of her friends suggested that club. i outlined that to out of office eye candy and he suggested another club instead that i've been to and like. i in turn told my friend and it's been decided, friday night it's gonna be her bachelorette party night!

though some bachelorette party it's gonna be 'coz the boys are invited as well. hmm... maybe i should ask out of office eye candy along... haha!

****

my london guy friend just texted me. turns out he ran outta credits. okay... i can understand that. we're trying to meet up tomorrow...

chug that beer

there are definitely certain benefits being in the job that i'm in. a very relaxed dress code, the occasional free meals and free samples as well as some interesting events.

previously it was a tobacco launch. yesterday night it was a beer tour. it's almost like we're going full on into the vice thing haha!

the beer event was great. all of the operations staff who are normally out of office were there, including out of office eye candy who was in an eye-catching red shirt. who could miss him?

we are sat around with our beers, just chilling for a bit. then there was the actual tour itself which was interesting. before we settled in for dinner, karaoke, pool playing and of 'coz more beer. in fact we even had a beer drinking competition. my 'reputation' as the girl who can drink landed me as one of the contestants. i hardly drink beer at all. now if it were vodka, it would be a piece of cake. but beer is sorta gassy and is harder to go down. anyhow i had to down a mug as fast as possible. it was crazy but fun.

as usual when i meet up with out of office eye candy we are just great together. we chatted here and there though it's not like we were perpetually glued to each other's sides. we still found time to chat with a few other people as well. but i almost feel like there's just some sort of an awareness of where the other is.

and there was more of that gutter brain talk that we do...

*out of office eye candy trying to explain the finer points of playing pool*
jo: so where's your ball?
out of office eye candy: well my ball is... *gives me a cheeky look*

*another colleague was talking bout punching a pillow to vent your anger*
jo: no when you're venting, you need it to be hard not soft
out of office eye candy: yeah women like it hard

i definitely like this guy. we can always talk and joke around. we also have a fair bit in common. we have the potential to be great together. but i can't afford to even let myself think that way too much... he still has a girlfriend...

champagne & beer

i think i was a good girl this weekend.

the yummy mommy and i went out on friday night. for the most part we were hanging out in this pub that we used to frequent and have recently been frequenting again. we were having our free flow of champagne and chatting by ourselves before we moved to join some of the bosses at their table. we know 'em so it's not a problem. they're pretty shorthanded and were trying to get us to work for 'em part-time. i've always fancied the idea of working in a bar but i've never bartended and i'm pretty clumsy so perhaps waitressing is out as well. of 'coz the bosses didn't seem to care much bout that fact haha!

in one of our conversations, the yummy mommy let it on to me that she heard from some staff that the dj in that pub really liked me. this is the thing i don't get. i met that guy over a year ago. he asked for my number and in a tipsy state during his birthday party, even introduced me to his family members as his girlfriend. but what he never did was to actually call me to ask me out. not that i'm interested 'coz i'm not but still i find it hard to believe that he supposed likes me that much but doesn't ask me out. or is this a new fad nowadays?

later we headed to our usual rounds of clubs to dance. the fun was short circuited for me when between me and some idiot drunk guy seated next to me, i managed to get champagne spilled all over me. and i really mean all over me. i headed home soon after.

maybe those bosses should reconsider wanting me to work in their pub...

****

so on saturday i actually did a lil detour to support out of office eye candy in the roadshow. there were some other people from work helping out as well. i didn't say much as to why i was there except that i happened to be around the area.

out of office eye candy was pretty busy so i didn't get much time to talk to him. our brief conversation went something like this:

*out of office eye candy nudges jo as he checks out the pockets of the guy in front*
jo: stop checking out his ass!
out of office eye candy: *laughs* no i can tell if a guy is a driver or not
*out of office eye candy proceeds to tell jo a few different ways how you can tell*

it's a pity that by the time he was free to chat, i had to leave to meet some other friends. all the same i'm glad i detoured a lil. at least he knows that i'm a woman of my word.

****

later i went to meet my other friends for a world music concert. it was large scale, it was sweltering hot. but we ate and drank and danced and had a great time. i hardly drink beer but it just felt like a beer kinda event. i saw my party girl with some of her other friends and we said hey for a bit. after the event she headed to the pub we frequent to meet some other friends of ours. but i was too tired out and decided to stay put for the post event party for a while before heading home.

well at least i didn't spill any beer on me...

blow wind blow

there are times when certain sentences come out of your mouth and sound much worse than what it sounded in your head. you didn't mean for it to sound dirty in that way, but somehow it did.

out of office eye candy is someone who's brain has the ability to be in the gutter. i actually kinda like that 'coz my brain is like that too. and 'coz out of office eye candy and i are the kind of so-called friends that we are, we're kinda comfy with laughing bout our gutter minds.

i went for an offsite meeting yesterday and he was there. as usual we were chatting and joking around. recently my company had a promotion on fans and he was telling me that he sold quite a few at his station. so i asked him if he bought any and he said that he bought one to put in the office. not thinking too much, i commented:

jo: oh so you bought the fan to blow your staff

he gave me a look. and then i realised what i had just said. and then we just started laughing at my slip of the tongue.

out of office eye candy: no i'm not a blower

of 'coz that just sent me into more laughter. i could have said something to that but i held it back. it might have been considered as sexual harassment haha!

****

so this morning i received a call from out of office eye candy thanking me for remembering to email him some work related stuff. that was sweet of him to call.

then he asked me to come down to town tomorrow afternoon to support him in some roadshow thing. so it's for work and not exactly like a personal thing... but on the other hand he was asking me to take some time off from my personal time to support him. how could i refuse? i asked him if he was serious and he was like yeah... so since i was intending to be in that general area anyway i would probably just go earlier and say hey to him.

is this what happens when you get older?

happy birthday to me. today i turn a grand 'old' age of 26.

strangely i don't feel like partying. i feel like having a nice quiet night. but my party girl is all geared up for a party and i don't wanna disappoint her. besides a few other people that we know from the party circuit is also gearing up. can't disappoint 'em either. i'm hoping for just a few drinks and head home relatively early since i still have to work tomorrow. but unfortunately i don't think that's gonna happen.

i'm worried.

i know that there will be quite a bit of drinks... and i'll be the one that they'd want drinking all those drinks. oh gosh...

but i'm telling myself that no more drinking after this. to make sure that that actually happens, i made plans with other friends for the weekend so that i'd be less tempted to head out with my party girl. i really want to cut down on the drinking and party lifestyle. i can't believe i'm actually saying that. am i just getting older?

****

my london guy friend wished me over IM. he told me that he got me a pressie which he's going to mail today. i didn't expect that. what a sweetheart... it's in the lil things that make me swoon... like when i was in london and he was supposed to meet me. he had bought himself a drink and got me one as well even though i didn't even ask. or the time when he burned me a cd of the 8 minute ab workout 'coz we were talking bout it and passed it to me months later when he came over to visit even though i had forgotten all bout it. he also bought me a travel book on london.

and even for out of office eye candy, he tells me to watch out for hot coffee and asks me if i want any food when he's coming into the office 'coz he knows i'm perpetually eating haha! it's all in the lil things.